Part three of the Battle Series:
Resolve is one of those weird qualities that can never really be measured until the time when you have to show it. You can’t use words to express it; people lie all the time. And even if they were telling the truth at the time, circumstances change rapidly in battle and at that particular point nobody cares about what you said. Actions can though, but only actions performed when you’re backed up against a wall.
I’d like to think of resolve as determination’s bigger, meaner and more badass sibling. Determination conotes working towards something with some form of discipline or diligence, while resolve is something already ‘worked towards’. Determination’s the journey, resolve is the end game. Because in battle things are there and there; there’s no more learning, no more trying harder next time, no more keep at it. In battle you either have it or you don’t.
Picture two soldiers in their prime; equally trained, of similar skill level and of equal physical strength. Who will triumph? What determines the winner?
Anyone who’s been in an activity that exerts your body more than normal can attest to the fact that there’s a point you reach where your body just wont move; consequently at this point skill doesn’t really matter. Your vision is blurry, you can’t even stand properly. The point where all the factors are at 0; the baseline. That baseline is resolve. Like a default setting; what you’re really made of. At that point, at that decisive point in battle, the one with the more solid resolve will never fall under the blow of the one with the less.
Note the word ‘solid’ because resolve is not a building that goes higher and higher. It’s a root that grows deeper and deeper.
Can resolve be strengthened? I don’t know. But highly unlikely. You can never really train for the nastiness of battle. But the things you see and have to do, those things ‘harden you’ and that forms your baseline, your resolve. Yes, resolve is just a pretty word for stubbornness.
Determination is “I know what I need to do and I’m diligently working towards it.” Resolve is “I don’t care what I have to do. Imma do it anyway. What choice do I have?”
I can bring myself to all the ‘gives’ ; except one. I can do the ‘aways’ and the ‘outs’ and the ‘tos’, but I wont give up. You grazed my heart bruised my soul as you passed through my invisible self with the least of notice. I don’t know whether to cry or to laugh; I saw this coming from a mile away. But for the sake of you I will refrain from the sweet fruit of revenge, for your sake I’ll be the one to break that cycle of selfishness, the cycle of hate and retaliation. I’ll be Naruto because you are my Sasuke, I’ll be Allen Walker because you are an Akuma, I’ll be the receiver, I’ll make use of the empty shell i’ve become to cushion all your pain and anguish. For the sake of happiness I must walk deeper through pain. And if I don’t succeed I’ll still be OK, for I am Vlad and this is my resolve..